Down By The Water He Waits For Me- My Baptism Story

To anyone who is struggling with their walk of faith, remember that everyone’s walk is different. You choose your own path and how much you want God in your life. Some people would say that it took me a long time to let Yeshua enter into my heart. I would say it was at the right time.

Acts 22:16

“And now what are you waiting for? Get up, be baptized and wash your sins away, calling on his name.” 


My Faith Growing Up

I was definitely a church kid. Growing up, I attended church on Saturday mornings and prayed every chance I got. I grew up in a christian church, “Mount Zion Church of God Seven Day. And around the age of 13, my family switched churches and converted to a different religion.

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My family and I never missed a sabbath and my grandmother made sure we never missed a Sunday night worship, a passover, or a Wednesday night prayer meeting.


I started to attend a Jewish Shul when I was 13 years old. Since then, I’ve been attending Sabbath Service  on Saturday mornings. I never had a doubt in my mind that God was not real. I remember reading a quote by Albert Camus “I would rather live my life as if there is a God, and die to find out there isn’t, than live my life as if there isn’t, and die to find out there is.” That quote stuck to me like glue and I’ve carried it with me ever since.

My spiritual journey isn’t perfect. Throughout middle school and high school, I found myself struggling with my faith. I thought I could handle everything on my own and just turn to God when I needed him. During my college years, I found myself drifting even further and further away from God. I didn’t stop going to church altogether, but I lost the fervor I once had.

Still, despite turning my back on God, he never once turned his back on me. I fell in love at the age of 20 and got my heart broken at the age of 21. It was a very tough time in my life, but through it all God showed me that–no matter what– he will always love me.


Mikveh – Baptism

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I’m a new creation .I’m a brand new man. Old things are passed away. I am born again.More than a conqueror. That’s who I am. I’m a new creation. I’m a brand new man.

Last year, around this time, I was on my way to church and I heard a song playing from my Apple music account. I had never heard this song before, but I believe that GOD wanted me to hear it. I believe that God delivers signs when we need it. The song “He Waits For me” by Consumed By Fire belted from my speakers and in 30 seconds, I found myself crying my eyes out. At that very moment, I realized that I was ready to give my life to the Sovereign Yeshua. I never thought I would be writing a blog post on my  Mikveh (Baptism) .

My aunt told me to wait until I returned home (St.Thomas USVI) to get baptized at the Jewish shul where I worshipped as a teen and young adult. I waited for the right moment to travel back home. Yesterday, my plane landed and I left the airport and went straight to service. At service, they announced that my cousin was getting baptized. No one knew that I wanted to get baptized. After service, I walked up to the Rabi and told him that I would be joining my cousin in the water. I knew that I wanted to get baptized at some point during my trip back home, but I hadn’t imagined it happening so quickly.

The experience was joyful and eye-opening. Unlike many people, I wasn’t baptized as a baby. My mother wanted me to develop my own relationship with GOD. She didn’t want me to rush the process. I chose to get baptized on Sunday June 24, 2018 with my cousin. I was so thankful that we were able to share this amazing experience together. My cousin is also my best friend and my greatest supporter. I have no idea where I would be without her. He Waits For me by Consumed By Fire was playing as we walked, hand-in-hand, into the beautiful sea. A few steps in, I started to cry. I wasn’t scared or doubtful about my decision. The tears were a result of the immense joy and happiness I felt. I asked the servant Yeshua to cleanse me from my sins and I submerged myself in the water. “Kosher, Kosher, Kosher,” the three witnesses shouted from the shore as we emerged from the water. In that very moment I surrendered myself to God, I was finished living life my way and I wanted to live his way.

Being baptized was truly special. It was an unforgettable experience–one that I will remember for the rest of my life. At the age of 26, I am proud to say that I am officially a part of the family of Yeshua. I am so thankful for all the influential people in my life such as my Aunt Martha, My Sister Kathy, and My Mother. God has done so much for me in my life, and now I can continue to serve him faithfully.  I hope that my story touches someone else’s life. I am just publicly declaring my faith to let everyone know that easy it is to find the truth and the light in your life. You don’t have to do anything but say YES!



Coffee and Conversations With God- Where Were You ?


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Where was God when everything was going wrong? Where was God when I needed him the most?

Honestly, I thought this was going to be the easiest blog post to write but I was wrong. I called my Aunt and asked her for advice on this question and surprisingly she couldn’t give me an answer. I am going to try to  answer this question to the best of my abilities.

So about four years ago, I was at the lowest point of my life. I had just got broken up with and I was taking 21 credit hours in college. I can honestly tell you that point in my life really changed me as a person. I doubted God so much during that time. I couldn’t wrap my finger around the fact that he really let this happen. Looking back, the break-up had been a long time coming, but I stalled it as much as I could. I didn’t want to loose him and I didn’t want to be alone.

I wouldn’t wish a heartbreak on my worst enemy. A heartbreak is never easy for anyone. I remember sitting on my bathroom floor crying and asking God WHY?. Now that I look back on that season in my life I can see why God did what he did. I always thought that he left me because I focused more on my relationship than I did with my relationship with him. Well I can tell you now that I was wrong. Through those hard times God was more present that he was in the good times. He knew that I would need him more at during that time in my life.

I remember sitting at a coffee shop in Cambridge, England thinking to myself how amazing God is. He provided me with this amazing opportunity to travel the world and obtain my masters degree. At that moment in my life I realized that God isn’t to blame for all the bad things that happen in our lives or this world.

People tend to forget that there is good and evil in this world. God brings good and bad (what may look like bad to you is good to God because he has a plan). Then we tend to get bad things that happen which is created by the Devil but plot twist….. He doesn’t just send bad your way he also sends good.

It took me a while to realize that this is how the world works. At the age of 25 I have lived a life that I can write a series from. During those times in my life God didn’t disappear on me he was right where I needed him. One set of foot prints were all I saw in the sand but at the moment in my life he was carrying me. We tend to walk by sight and not by faith.  2 Corinthians 5:7 tells us “Walk By Faith Not By Sight”.

I learned to that letting go of the old freed my heart to embrace God’s new for me. (Tracie Miles). I choose God’s new for my life and he out did himself. I can’t image what my life would be life if I was still stuck in my dead end relationship. The world is full of good and bad but everything that you may think is bad is just God working in your life.

Do you remember the story of Joseph? Joseph went through so much during a season in his life. God put Joseph through so much. His brothers got jealous of him and sold him into slavery in Egypt. While at the slave market he was sold to Potiphar, which was the chief of police in pharaohs police force. His life wasn’t perfect but is could be worse. Well I guess I spoke to soon because then Potiphar’s wife wrongly accused Joseph of doing something wrong. Joseph was thrown in jail but God did all of this because he had a plan for Josephs life. Later on in the story Pharaoh had a dream and he asked Joseph to interpret his dream. We then realized why everything happened the way it did. God blessed Joseph life. God was there when Joseph needed him most.

I just want to let you know that during those most difficult times in life he is there. During those times when you no one else can do or say anything that makes a difference, during those times when it feels like God has deserted us, especially at those times God is in that place with us. He gave us the bible to guide us our hearts and our life. Don’t be afraid to open it when you need him the most.

So to answer the question – Where is God when you need him? Darling- God is right here … Right Now… Right With You. Trust in him. ❤