To anyone who is struggling with their walk of faith, remember that everyone’s walk is different. You choose your own path and how much you want God in your life. Some people would say that it took me a long time to let Yeshua enter into my heart. I would say it was at the right time.
“And now what are you waiting for? Get up, be baptized and wash your sins away, calling on his name.”
My Faith Growing Up
I was definitely a church kid. Growing up, I attended church on Saturday mornings and prayed every chance I got. I grew up in a christian church, “Mount Zion Church of God Seven Day. And around the age of 13, my family switched churches and converted to a different religion.
My family and I never missed a sabbath and my grandmother made sure we never missed a Sunday night worship, a passover, or a Wednesday night prayer meeting.
I started to attend a Jewish Shul when I was 13 years old. Since then, I’ve been attending Sabbath Service on Saturday mornings. I never had a doubt in my mind that God was not real. I remember reading a quote by Albert Camus “I would rather live my life as if there is a God, and die to find out there isn’t, than live my life as if there isn’t, and die to find out there is.” That quote stuck to me like glue and I’ve carried it with me ever since.
My spiritual journey isn’t perfect. Throughout middle school and high school, I found myself struggling with my faith. I thought I could handle everything on my own and just turn to God when I needed him. During my college years, I found myself drifting even further and further away from God. I didn’t stop going to church altogether, but I lost the fervor I once had.
Still, despite turning my back on God, he never once turned his back on me. I fell in love at the age of 20 and got my heart broken at the age of 21. It was a very tough time in my life, but through it all God showed me that–no matter what– he will always love me.
Mikveh – Baptism
I’m a new creation .I’m a brand new man. Old things are passed away. I am born again.More than a conqueror. That’s who I am. I’m a new creation. I’m a brand new man.
Last year, around this time, I was on my way to church and I heard a song playing from my Apple music account. I had never heard this song before, but I believe that GOD wanted me to hear it. I believe that God delivers signs when we need it. The song “He Waits For me” by Consumed By Fire belted from my speakers and in 30 seconds, I found myself crying my eyes out. At that very moment, I realized that I was ready to give my life to the Sovereign Yeshua. I never thought I would be writing a blog post on my Mikveh (Baptism) .
My aunt told me to wait until I returned home (St.Thomas USVI) to get baptized at the Jewish shul where I worshipped as a teen and young adult. I waited for the right moment to travel back home. Yesterday, my plane landed and I left the airport and went straight to service. At service, they announced that my cousin was getting baptized. No one knew that I wanted to get baptized. After service, I walked up to the Rabi and told him that I would be joining my cousin in the water. I knew that I wanted to get baptized at some point during my trip back home, but I hadn’t imagined it happening so quickly.
The experience was joyful and eye-opening. Unlike many people, I wasn’t baptized as a baby. My mother wanted me to develop my own relationship with GOD. She didn’t want me to rush the process. I chose to get baptized on Sunday June 24, 2018 with my cousin. I was so thankful that we were able to share this amazing experience together. My cousin is also my best friend and my greatest supporter. I have no idea where I would be without her. He Waits For me by Consumed By Fire was playing as we walked, hand-in-hand, into the beautiful sea. A few steps in, I started to cry. I wasn’t scared or doubtful about my decision. The tears were a result of the immense joy and happiness I felt. I asked the servant Yeshua to cleanse me from my sins and I submerged myself in the water. “Kosher, Kosher, Kosher,” the three witnesses shouted from the shore as we emerged from the water. In that very moment I surrendered myself to God, I was finished living life my way and I wanted to live his way.
Being baptized was truly special. It was an unforgettable experience–one that I will remember for the rest of my life. At the age of 26, I am proud to say that I am officially a part of the family of Yeshua. I am so thankful for all the influential people in my life such as my Aunt Martha, My Sister Kathy, and My Mother. God has done so much for me in my life, and now I can continue to serve him faithfully. I hope that my story touches someone else’s life. I am just publicly declaring my faith to let everyone know that easy it is to find the truth and the light in your life. You don’t have to do anything but say YES!