I can’t remember the last time I had a good cry. One of those ugly balling cries. Its good to have one of those every now and then. Maybe twice a year or twice. One of those cries where you cry about something that doesn’t matter and isn’t life threatening. It doesn’t have to deal with death or a tragedy. Its one of those cries where you are frustrated, angry, and sad all at the same time. The thing is after that cry you’re like what the hell was I crying about again?
Well I think I need one of those cries right about now. I try not to think about things I have no control over. I try to focus on other things and keep myself busy. I remember freshman year I told my roommate that you needs to stop crying because crying gives you wrinkles. Still to this day I do believe that is true even though its not scientifically proven.
In life we just have to remind ourselves that everything isn’t going to go as planned. You won’t get that job that you really want. That hot guy you think is flirting with you was just being nice. Your ex will move on and you won’t. That guy you are really interested in is not that interested in you. Someone won’t return your phone and you’re not going to get married before 30.
You know what they say if you want to hear God laugh tell him your plans. Well let me tell you something he’s having a good laugh at me right now. I wanted so much for myself at the age of 24 and I am no where near where I want to be. I know that 2016 is almost over and the goals I had for myself at the beginning of the year didn’t really happen but 2017 is almost here. I can set new goals for myself and still accomplish the ones I had from last year. I can’t give up on me because no one else is out there routing for me as hard as I am routing for myself.